[TA]ayu's writing No.174
 

Credits:hiroyuki@AC
えっと。。。
No.174 2007年07月14日 (土) 12時26分

皆にものすごく心配かけちゃってるみたいなので
一言だけ、言いに来たよ。

あのね、私達は恋人同士という枠を取っ払った事によって、
以前にも増して、深い絆で繋がれている関係になれ たの。
それはね、本当に素晴らしい事だと思うの。

愛には色んな形がある。
ひとつとして同じものはない。
私達の愛の形はこれなんだよね。

とても前向きな決断だと受け取ってもらえると嬉しいよ。
だから、どうか悲しまないでね。



Translated by Wincy@ila

I am sorry for making all of you worried about me.
But I want to say something.

That is... about the thing that we have exceeded the frame of being lovers.
We actually, when comparing to previously, are even more closely bounded with each other.
This is, a very good thing indeed, I think.

Love has many different forms.
There won't be only one form.
Our form of love is like this now.

When I can be able to make a positive decision towards the future, I am really glad about this.
Therefore, I am not sad.

oh~~ i wonder wat it's saying! we never get two Ayu writings on the very next day!

someome please translate :yes

holllllly crap. must. read. now.

another one? i want to know what it says too!

please translate :D

I hope it says something like.. my breakup was just a joke or something. =P I'll keep dreaming now.

^^yea, i hope its something about the break-up incident.

Whoa, she sounds almost a little annoyed. Poor thing!

While I secretly hope Ayu is going lipstick les, I really do wish her the best. Strong relationships is her position are so difficult to nurture, and going about these relationships the way your heart wants to is near-impossible with her crushing level of responsibility and duty. This is the most human we have seen Ayu in years. It is sad to see that this is the circumstance under which that humanity comes, especially after seeing the most positive, lovey-dovey Ayu music of her career crammed into the past few years. "HONEY" feels like a sad song to listen to now.

oh my goodness!! o.0

YOU TELL EM GIRL!

Awwww! So she doesn't want her fans to be worried about her then? So that means she really must be okay. Well that makes me feel good to know!

Well, if there's one thing we've learned from Ayu's lyrics up to now, it's that she says she's okay when she really isn't, and that it's not her nature to be comfortable relying on people.

I feel so ***** saying this, because I never give a rat's behind about celebrity gossip, and I hate when people talk about celebrities as if they know them. But I am actually concerned about her. I actually feel kind of hurt for her. Ending a 7 year romantic relationship the terms that Ayu seems to describe, in my immediate impression, only means one thing: two people love eachother, but circumstances won't allow them to live out their love the way their hearts want. It's like finding the love of your life, but at the completely wrong time. Letting that go is more hard than most know.

A plausible speculation might be that Ayu isn't ready to grow up and settle down (as we've heard her describe her personality and way of life in past interviews and lyrics), and maybe he was tired of waiting for her. By keeping their relationship on such close-knit terms, they are keeping the doors open for tomorrow.

I guess she just wants to move on. As fans, yup, I think we're just worried more for Ayu. It's saddening, BUT I guess it's her personal choice. And if she's ok with it, I think I'm ok with it as well.

Well yeah, but like someone else said, she almost sounds annoyed that so many people are so worried about her... I would be kinda annoyed if people were worried about me when there was no reason to be worried because I was okay.

I agree with your speculation though on why the relationship ended. I specifically call to mind her CNN interview where she stated that she never wanted to grow up and gain tons of responsibilities of adulthood. :)

So I guess we should have seen this coming...
Well I'm glad that Ayu is taking this very well.

That's one way to see it, but I kind of took it as Ayu saying that because they had been together for so long, their relationship had become more of like a family kind of love, more so than a deep passion. They are splitting on good terms and will continue to see each other. That says to me that their relationship had become more like that of friends than of lovers. It seems like it may have been like this for a while and they only now decided to officially call it quits.

If she's happy, we should be happy for her too! Go Ayu!

I think she only sounds like she's taking this well because she doesn't want her fans to be extremely worried about her. After all, she is a mature woman and if she just breaks down crying, everyone in Japan would worry about her. This piece of news is already causing many around her to concern over her well-being and obviously she doesn't like that. I think those who are concerned should pretend like everything is fine. It would definitely make her feel better and for her pains to heal faster.

It kinda sounds that way. >.< I hope not though.

True! I haven't listened to it, but I thought about the songs dedicated to Nagase and it feels so sad. Songs like "CAROLS", "HONEY", "JEWEL"...
All her songs about him show that she took the relationship seriously. Therefore it's not fair towards ayu (and Nagase) to say "Finally, he sucked" or "Good thing, he was ugly anyway".

Yeah! I agree. :(

I can comment on this from experience. When I am feeling hurt about my ex girlfriend and her finding anything to do with a new guy, all of her friends/my friends ask me "What's wrong?" and "Are you ok?" and I respond "I'm fine" because what the hell do they think is wrong? You know? I try so hard to not show my pain and they keep asking me questions like they want me to be miserable...

The only good thing bout this is that they are still friends ... but the one thing I don't understand how can someone you loved, someone you slept with be more like a brother than a lover ... that's the only thing I can't understand

exactly...thats what I was thinking too...especially for 7 years. :(

will Ayu do sum press conference for this break-up thing?

agree with that.. I mean everytime you see the other part even as a brother there'll be a possibility that sum pictures appear inside your mind.. the time when you 2 hold hands together etc..

but wish all the best for Ayu I'm sure she always does sumthing which she knows that she wants it and it's the best decision for her..

yep totally agree.. I mean everytime you see the other party there'll always be a possbility those past pictures appear inside your head.. the tme when you two kissed, etc

but afterall wish all the best for ayu..I'm sure she always does sumthing which she wants and she knows it's the best decision to make

She's so sweet, she doesn't want her fans to worry :) After 7 years, I'm sure it's not that easy to let go for her, but I know she'll be ok. And they're still friends and very close, like she said, it's a good thing. It seems like they've felt like this for a while, and now finally decided to seperate. Definately it wasn't just a sudden break up, where the other just said "it's over". It's no use being together, if it doesn't feel right, is it?

I kind of understand them becoming more like family, than lovers. I just can't explain how I understand XD Like I said earlier, I think Tomoya is amazing and they were such a great couple and I do feel sad ( and like people said, it's weird to listen to those songs, like HONEY for now :/ ) but if they think so, I'm sure this was a right choise in the end.

i don't understand how they could end up for a 7 years relationship...

It sounds like a pretty mutual break-up, which is very good, lets hope this break up news will do as good for sales like Flavour OF Life :P

I don't realli-realli get it

it sounds more like if they're in another stage of relation,closer than love?
eh...

I just guess Ayu feels realli bad & concerned bout media & fans as well
let's pray for her :)

That entry is just so sweet.
She manages to stay optimistic through everything.
I just hope she's happy~

yeah...
she'll go to Hawaii & relive the pain & find a new bf :yes

I think she's strong enough to be ok with this, it seems that it may have been coming for quite some time. and she may actually be happy that they have finally made clear just what their relationship is, to themselves and to the world, so now they can move on, and enjoy this close bond they have.

All the fans feeling sorry for her and worrying about her is likely to just annoy her, as they are missing the point: she is happy.

lol. That's exactly why. :yes

^sorry but ... HUH??? can you explain why you made that comment???

awwww ayu is such a good person and artist let the fans know such things I love her so much!

She is so strong and optimistic...reminds me of myself ^_^.
Go ayu!

Regardless of anything else, this is very true.

thanks for the translation :D

aww, hope she took it easy.

Exactly. :)

Her words speak poetry, and it is very good to hear she is taking it so well. I'm glad she's happy, even through all this.

If she says she's happy, I believe her, and I see no reason not to. She's even said herself that she won't lie to herself, and her lyrics reflect her honesty.

well... hope ayu dun get too sad and move on.,.

From Ayu's comments it seems that it's because they have been together for so long that their romantic relationship kinda fell apart.(coupled with the pressures of their jobs) It's like most married couples (not all), but if you've been together for a long time the relationship becomes more like that of companions and close friends, rather than lovers/boyfriend girlfriend. You can still have love and respect for each other but just not in that romantic type of way anymore. Some people can't handle the relationship being only that. That's why it's good that they waited so long to get married; it's better this than being trapped in a marriage they are unhappy in or getting a divorce right now instead of just splitting up.

I think some people might be reading too much into this and not trusting the words that are coming out of Ayu's own mouth. None of us know exactly what went on and Ayu's word is good enough for me. I really think it's been this way for quite a long while and they only recently decided to make it "official."

At first (well yesterday) I was shocked, I couldn't believe it. I was felling sad for her! But more I'm thinking about it, plus after reading her second TA message,
I'm changning my mind. It's her choice & she's ok with it. It's what she wants & I completly respect that. It's sure that we are worried but after reading this message I think we don't need to. She wants us to respect this decision. & we have to remember that she's happy with that. That's really what is important: that she is happy.
I can say that after reading this message, I completly changed my mind of seeing this & as a fan of Ayu I think that the better way of supporting her is to respect her decision.

10x for the info :(

"We actually, when comparing to previously, are even more closely bounded with each other"


could this be possible?