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When I read the thread title, I thought it was quoting the AUDIENCE lyrics:

In these seemingly worthless days
there is hidden a trick to being happy.
It was made for
everyone to share.

haha.

I remember reading on the ASFXX liner notes that she mentioned always having had trouble with being able to express herself, and that she found her way to do it through her lyrics. I think being able to voice her opinions must've taken a huge load off her back... I mean, not being able to tell people properly about your beliefs and ideas for so long (19 years?) would be exhausting.

And then, to top it off, being heard and supported by all the fans she gained. Just by looking at the ASFXX (song) lyrics it's obvious how alone she felt during her childhood, so that must've been... a nice surprise, to say the least?

And being in the entertainment business she must've learned so much that she didn't know before, seeing so many sides of life she wasn't aware of, it would expand her view of the world. With all she's gone through, good or bad, in these 10 years, she's become a lot wiser... you can pretty much witness her line of thought changing if you read her lyrics chronologically.

I think Ayu's happy because she figured it all out. She knows herself, she knows exactly what she wants and what she must do to achieve it, she's seen the world around it for what it is. So even if horrible things happen and she becomes depressed (like her ear and her friend's death last year), in the end, she remember the direction she'd been following.