It sounds the complete opposite from what it originally seemed to be LOL She isn't really that much in despair, I actually think she's saying she matured. The TA help her bank account become fatter, so no wonder she gets happy with them!!!! I'd really be happy as well if I were to get paid TO receive encouraging messages
And definitely she wouldn't ever trade all her LV and Dolce & Gabanna to become some 'common' girl with a 'love'
I wouldn't
Don't be weak ayu!!!!