I can kinda relate to your story in a few ways lacus.
I tried to commit suicide sometimes... ok I guess that was about all.
but when people tried to stop me I tried to kill them instead and then I got
scared that they would ruin my posters and CDs when I'm dead 
I'm a horrible horrible horrible person, even posters are more important
to me than another human being.
I think it was the lyrics of because of you that made me see that
she is something different, not bcos the lyrics would be super unique
but well it's better than ''shake that booty *****'' 
I can honestly say ayu has changed my life alot