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Truehappiness, out of curiosity (and I'm not saying this sarcastically), have you ever been upset with an Ayu release or a direction she's taken? You always seem so content with every little thing that to be completely honest, I at times have doubted if its sincere or you just want to be a super loyal-throughout-everything fan. I'm not trying to be rude or anything and sorry if that's how it comes across.
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It's sincere. Though with BLUE BIRD, it took about 300 plays for me to stop thinking of fairyland's chorus...
I would say that my fandom is like the other fans who listen to Ayu and like everything. (Most of them anyway... the ones that aren't oblivious to bad photography and etc...) With Ayu, I feel as though she's been such a big part of my life for the last 7-8 years and I just appreciate it all and take it all in as it comes. There's nothing that's really ever disappointed me because I always go into it with a clear mind instead of thinking "Oh, this is how it's going to look/sound/etc...". What's the use of being dissatisfied when everything she's done since I became a fan [and before...] has been great to me? It's not like I'm choosing to like it all, but for some reason I just can't dislike anything. In 2008-2009 become kind of "Oh, those?" to her photoshoots and PVs since they became rather... different, but things are definitely looking up now that Kazuyoshi Shimomura and Takahide Ishii are out of the picture for the most part. I guess you could say that I have no expectations when it comes to releases, but putting it that way makes me/other people sound like douchebags, so it's more like I just trust Ayu to satisfy me no matter what she does, and so far, that's worked for me. It's hard to explain since I just listen to the music and let it grow on me without being overtly negative about it... (new things = change = tends to create negative reactions at first due to how new they are...)
I sometimes have issues with tracks like GUILTY and EnergizE, but I realize that I have to be a mood for those songs, haha.