*is impatiently waiting for it to be Monday and her album arrives*
Ayusan, I'm been reading your posts all day. You really are too hard on yourself cupcake. I can understand your frustration but you need to calm down and stop punishing yourself for things out your control. It's very unfortunate that these things keep happening to you, purchasing anything from Ayu should be an enjoyable experience. But keep in mind, that these things usually happen for a reason. Maybe it'll turn out you need that money for something else or you just need to settle for a little less now before you're rewarded with something better in the future. You never know.
You worked hard and was screwed over, you should be upset but don't let that anger take over and destroy any bit of happiness you may get. Remember that the posters and PB and all that stuff are just incentives, the real prize is that feeling you get when you pop the CD in and hear new Ayu music. I'm sure you'll love the album. Don't let misfortune cloud your opinion of it. Take it easy, k?
