[Enfluerage]

In my life, the gifts that I truly respect are the ones where people gave to me without expecting to be repaid.

When I received these gifts, they become imprinted in my character.

That is, give and teach.

When I was younger,

My mother worked so hard all her life to make me happy, whether I would smile or frown.

She always told me "I'm not perfect, but I'll try my best for you".

One of the greatest things she said was "Try your best, don't worry about the test results".


What was one of the greatest things she did for me?

While most parents only cared that their children passed "Grade 8 piano", my mum found me a music teacher that would teach me without doing a single music exam. I could play whatever I chose, try as hard as chose and yet my teacher would still teach me.

Why did I grow up truly loving music so much?
Why would I happily play music for free?
Why is music one of my greatest gifts?

Because I learnt music for free. My mum paid the teacher.

Because I truly loved music so much, I listened to so many different singers from all around the world.

I listen to English, Italian, French, German, Chinese, Korean, Japanese songs etc

I listen to music from 300 years ago, 200 years ago, 100 years ago, 50 years ago, 20 years ago, 10 years ago and the most recent.

I listen to all kids of genres - Pop, Rock, Dance, Alternative, Chillout, Trance, R&B, Jazz, Classical etc

When I listened to all these singers, who was the singer I respected the most?

This singer is half-deaf
This singer is one of the most naturally imperfect singers
This singer tries the hardest.

This singer is has one of the most amazing stories in the world. As a child, she was always alone. Her father abandoned her and her mother was forced to work. There wasn't social help in place because no one in her country gets divorced at the time. Most people at school would shun her and stay away from her. When she got older, everyone told her she would fail.

As she was always alone, she kept writing and writing to keep herself company. Here are some of her writings. They are the most amazingly beautiful song lyrics even when translated into English.

No matter how far apart we are,we're always together. Remember that even when you feel crushed by the weight of the world,there's someone out there who loves you. (Daybreak)

The more you pretend to be strong, I see your weakness. The more you bare your fangs, I see your pain. You can be yourself, I'll accept you. You don't have to be afraid, because I know you (Kiss o Kill)

"The sparkling crystals we have left behind are now shining here though they may not be perfect…Honestly, I cannot say that it was all fun and joyful. But always, I wasn't alone" (My all)

What if there was nothing to believe in,and what if all that's left is despair?Please, hear my prayers in this era overflowingwith wingless angels.Even if you have no wings left. I still have one wing left ... (Endless Sorrow)

Remember, just one more time how we were born, crying, into this world.Your dreams and hopes for tomorroware all in this world. (A song is born)


No one in the industry could understand her career. But I did.

Why was she considered the greatest fashion trendsetter in the country?

She wore whatever she felt most comfortable. All her female fans wore what she wore. Most other singers were forced to wear whatever her fans wore.

Why was she so influencial person in setting music tastes?

She sung whatever genre she felt most comfortable. All her fans listened to whatever genre she sung. Most other singers sung whatever genre she sung.


And what was the point ?

She was the most truly respected singer because:

Her singing did not matter.
Her musical style did not matter.
Her fashion did not matter.

Year after year, people would buy her songs.

Because no one truly cared about her music, her songs or her fashion!

They only cared about her writings !

She wrote so beautifully because every since as a child, she wrote without expecting to be repaid.

I remember around a few years ago, when my family situation became so bad.

I always argued with mother, who said I was a fake Christian. I know now she was correct.

I always blamed my mother for my bad family situation, because she was the one who was still with me.

A single sentence changed my whole outlook on life.

I was watching an interview.


Hamasaki Ayumi was asked, who was the hero in her life?

Without a moment's hesitation, she replied in English.


"It's my mum. She worked hard all her life to make me happy".

I started crying when I heard this. Hamasaki Ayumi pointed out one of the most beautiful messages in my life.

If there is a really bad situation,
Most people argue and blame those who are still around them.
But those who are still around them are the ones who they should really appreciate the most !