i'm glad to know that she didn't upload that picture just by accident, but that she meant it for her fans who either can't join TA for whatever reason and for her foreign fans. i'm glad she doesn't totally forget about us. i myself am not a TA member...i want to join, but have not been financially able to yet (
), but i definitely have plans to. although, for those of us who don't know japanese, its a shame that joining TA really doesn't help us much. then again, its not like i expect ayumi to translate her messages into english for us, or even to write in english on TA. i do appreciate when she writes in english on twitter though.
anyway, i really hate this drama. i hate it so much. i just wish that all ayumi fans could be ONE instead of always having to feel thats its TA against twitter. in some way, i feel like the past decade of supporting ayumi should at least afford me the ability to read her TA entries too. it makes me feel sometimes like i'm less of a fan or something, like by joining TA somehow you become a super fan. i'm not sure how to express my feelings, i just know that as much as i love ayumi being on twitter, i miss those days before twitter when there wasn't any drama like this. i have so much appreciation though for those of you who have done translations for us.
and also, i really hate that ayumi has to even deal with this. she should be allowed to do whatever she damn well pleases. yes, i do think TA should get things that aren't just out there on twitter or the internet for everyone, i mean they do pay to be a part of her fan club, but i hate how ayumi seems to be forced to walk on eggshells for fear of upsetting TA members. what does it hurt if she uploads photos on twitter of herself once in a while? its not like that diminished TA in any way. its not like she even uploaded that image with an english tweet, it was still in japanese. it seems to me like any fan that is dedicated enough to actually pay and join TA should also be dedicated enough to ayumi to support her and not to cause her stress by complaining about the things she does. i support ayumi no matter what. if she closed her twitter tomorrow, or if she opened TA to everyone, i support her and i think that any true fan should as well. they shouldn't be so ready to send her messages about how displeased they are. besides, for every few members of TA that are upset, how many don't care? why does she have to cater to the few?
sorry, this is totally a ramble. thanks a lot for sharing with us though misa-chan. i respect your decision completely. i don't think TA messages should be spread all around the internet. ayumi writes them for her fan club, and while i myself would be sad not to see translations of them, i would understand. on the other hand, like i was saying before, many of us can't read japanese, so even if we join TA we won't be able to read her messages, so i think its important that people do translations. its just a shame that they can't be locked down somehow. maybe it sounds ridiculous, but i wish there was some way that translations could only be accessed by members who have joined TA or maybe on some other criteria, but that translations wouldn't be just right here in everyone's faces for anyone on the internet to come along and repost. i imagine sometimes what ayumi would think if she came to AHS and not only saw her music up for download, but that she would see all of her private TA messages displayed for everyone here to read. i think she would be very upset with us, and i definitely wouldn't want that to happen.
but if i couldn't read any of her TA messages ever again, i would be very upset. so i'm not quite sure what to think. i guess in a perfect world the answer is join TA and learn japanese, but thats realllly freaking hard, lol.
ok, sorry for the ramble.
