[mimika]

I dun know why but i've been havin such feelings...

sometimes ayu just doesn't seem real to me....itz like...shez a dream..it seems shez a doll...just that when i look at her...sometimes it seems the pieces just don't fit together...so like a dream

i've tried to analyze my thought..why have such feelings...

at first i thought itz 'cus ayu wanna be like a doll...'cus ayu said she's a dream herself...

then i thought it maybe computerized effects...when u look at her pics sometimes.....i think datz computer alterations that just make her looks...unreal....her skin can be so very smooth...too smooth that it seems lifeless....like a doll's procelin face....

i dun know why..but these feelings would come up some time..then fade away..then come up again...

ayu can be so unreal...or....SURREAL