OMG Congrats to kuu

, as long she's happy
okay this must be weird , I love Kuu and I support her but I don't know somehow I'm not happy for that news , I couldn't even explain it to my friends , like some told me I'm jealous of Kenji XD ! srsly !! and my BFF told me that because i may postpone my decision for my japan trip ! " I made a decision that I'm saving for next year to see kuu and i made a cute moneybox !" well I'm pretending to be happy for her , Ugh I really want to feel happy for her but I'm supporting everything she thinks it's right