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I think listening that much into the lyrics of "FIVE" is a bit of a stretch (to me, for example, BRILLANTE just screams "last time I'm ever gonna write about Tomoya Nagase, I need to freaking get over it"), but I think your point stands - at this point she's hit 50 singles, she's broken records, broken THOSE records again, so there's really no point for ayu to go out of her way to please the general public anymore. I DO think she's decided to sorta just chill out, do her own thing, be a figurehead of support for fans who've always seen her that way, and just go with the flow of things. And more power to her - this may be the closest thing to a "break" that such a workaholic may ever get.
And I think doing this is Ayu actively taking a step towards addressing her insecurities - insecurities I had no idea she even had until reading the lyrics to Party Queen's songs. Clearly, she's been working hard running from the pains of her past and trying to keep her mind off self-criticisms and comparing herself to others. By slowing things down, writing as the muse moves her, touring on her own terms, and not focusing so much on the essential seasonal singles that avex needs for their bottom line each year, she's forcing herself to stop running, to stop escaping, and to just be comfortable with herself for awhile.
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