This was very interesting, really. Thank you, I loved your opinion.
Personally, I always saw Ayu as a deeply troubled person, with a lot of issues, but, maybe because I'm a person with a lot of issues too, I never saw that as a problem. Actually, I love her because she's not perfect, because she's so deep and interesting, and inside her heart there's bad and there's good.
So, I kind of think Ayu was very afraid with Mannie. She desperately wanted to believe in this "love dream", but the whole affair was so big it scared her a bit. Marriage is deep stuff, one has to share pretty much everything I suppose. I'll never understand her for blaming Mannie
this much for the naked photoshoot, but I respect her values, even if I don't share them (but you're right, it's sort of hypocritical. She always linked her work with her personal life though, and in an artistic way not a lucrative one, so I understood Return Road PV. I kind of expected it tbh). Anyway, from my point of view, Ayu seemed to run away from Mannie, and in a sort of desperate way. It was rushed from the beginning, anyway.
Instead, I have nothing to say about Maro. It was a fling, nothing wrong with that. I mean, how many people had short relationships? It happens all the time. Sure, she put him in the PVs, but I didn't mind. Honestly, because I never felt they were about Maro at all, unlike the ones with Mannie. She could have put anyone instead of him.
And that's how I see the whole thing. Truth be told, she's just living her life, mistakes and all. I'm happy for that, she'll continue to evolve and eventually become an ever more complicated and beautiful person (thus, better lyrics and better music too
).