[primavera♥]

I was watching some extra ancient ayu lives and looking at some old but not as old photo shoots. Or more like, all of them and it's just weird looking at everything again while ayu is not new to me.

Like her voice was really bad in those lives at times, just a lack of any singing technique. But I still enjoyed it because there was some emotion. And then I realized that's how I always feel about her voice when it's awkward or just plain bad.

And then looking through magazine eras, I can't even say that she ever had a good era aside from 2000 and now. Ironically. Everything in between had something off about it, and something different each time lol. I could jokingly blame her continuous decline on her magazine shoots throughout her career. It's weird though. I don't expect everyone to look perfect and be the perfect face of beauty. But I guess I've seen the beauty of ayu so looking back at everything is like meh. What was going on? And who actually liked this? Like, I can't imagine being a fan in 2004 and looking at that granny style and saying, oh wow, this is flawless.

Still, I love her, and her music, and her lives. And specific selection of magazine shoots. I really like what she's done this year and part of last year. Finally found a bit of a decent place.