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Originally Posted by maikaru
I dunno if some of these comments are directed to me, but I'm going to state once again that I am in no way hating on Ayu. It is a very different experience when I was a child and Ayu had released an album to now, and I can't adjust. I can remember now, Oh shoot! Ayu is going to have a talk show! Ayu is going to be on Music Fair! Ayu is going to be on SmaSma! She has a comment on CDTV! OMG there's going to be an event in Tower Records! We have to go to the concert! She's releasing a new best album?! GREAT!!
Now there is absolutely nothing, and I just feel like what the actual eff? Did she release an album or did I just dream it? And everything she did before used to look so professional, so flawless, and sound great (Besides ASFXX, but I still listen to this album) that everything she's been doing recently just looks like she didn't have time to perfect it. Even the TV lives, Kohaku, everything - everything feels so unprepared and she just was like "Okay well I'm just gonna do it, see what happens!" and it looks like the music and everything is controlling her, and not the other way around. She used to be the center of everything and that she was above and knew exactly what to do, but now, I don't get that feeling. But I don't know how to shake this feeling.
I guess I'm just overreacting because it's not what I'm used to, and I want to feel the same way about her and her releases as I did when I was younger. I remember when I couldn't wait to buy her single or album, and now I just don't even care... it sucks.  You guys, please help. Ahaha.
I feel like I should send her a msg on Twitter. |
Totally understand. When I discovered ayu it was through Depend On You but at the present time she had just released Memorial Address / Moments was anticipated. But, I get everything you're saying.
As I've said before, its moronic for members to bitch that the "naysayers" should just give up. It's not so simple. For me, ayu is home. Music is such a HUGE part of my life and shaped who I am and still does to this day, and Ayu is a huge part of that. To discover this foreign artist who truly captivates you and brings so much pleasure and joy to your life in every way - and then to feel that slip away more and more with each year that passes and each release that goes by. It's very sad. Ayu is a part of all of us and to lose that love is to lose a portion of ourselves. It was a very unique experience to discover and follow her with such passion, that it helped me identify as an individual with my own tastes and not be influenced as heavily by the music that was just there. I had to seek her out - most all of us did. We invested time and energy within her and her community because of the passion we all felt / feel.
There are also those who are content with ayu and those who always crave new direction / styles. I've always been content because why change something that was so good to begin with? It's like you have a favorite food. You love that food more than any other food. When you go to consume that food, you expect it to taste exactly as you remembered - because that's what you crave. Suddenly, the ingredients where changed - the flavor isn't as outstanding, and you long for the days of the old flavor which gave you so much joy.
You just never know what you're gonna get with her music now.
Then sometimes she releases something with promise. Something that shows she's still capable of stirring magic within us. And you have hope. For me it was Days, Sparkle, Wake me up, reminds me, BRILLANTE, etc.