[KarenPang]

I think what you're experiencing now , it's normal to me as I myself also experience that

Not just in Ayu's fandom but in many other fandoms I'm also in , I think there will be a time when your fandom level peaks/stabilises & after a while , depending on circumstances , you might still stay on or in the worst sad case , just altogether leave

For me Ayu is no doubt a big part in influencing me on the way I listen to Japanese music especially since she was the 1st person I knew when I started to make that switch which happened almost 10 years ago

In the early days of supporting her , I listened to her music almost everyday without fail . Now I only do that occasionally depending on my mood but does that make me a bad fan ? Absolutely not

People change as time goes by . Likewise for Ayu & myself but for me I don't see myself leaving her fandom anytime soon . If I did , I would have done that a long time ago & not now

Also in recent times I have not been happy with what she does , be it when comes to her recent music and/or scrutiny on her private life which it's none of my business to care about but like what holy_arrow said , after seeing Ayu so upclose in closing a-nation Singapore last year , some of the old spark in me that supported her came back