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Originally Posted by //ABEST
I've noticed that I don't listen to ayu's music that much nowadays  i come here everyday to check the news and when we get something, i'll surely listen to it right away but i feel kinda disconnected to her music at the moment. I have not watched CDL15-16, AT16 nor latest a-nation performance, I've only watched some clips here and there. Usually I watch whole concerts almost right away
I don't know why but I don't get that much satisfaction from her newest songs like I use to until Colours |
MIJ felt like a huge step down to me for Ayu. The whole album, while really reflecting her the absolute best of any record since FIVE, seems unfinished and cobbled together. And that was a depressing moment for me -- realizing the days of intros and interludes and epic ballads (like Dearest, Days, JEWEL) and exciting songs (like Startin', GAME, and About You) is over and done. She simply doesn't want to make that, can't make that, or doesn't have the energy to carry her name and career forward with the same zest she had even 6 years ago.
Colours was a fun album. I listened to A ONE a lot. But I've watched her scale back a lot since 2010. First the singles, then the promo appearances, then the CDLs and tours became the same show with minor changes, then the albums became shorter and more like mixtapes. Not working with the same producers she usually worked with for even one song. Not calling in producers fans were begging her to work with again. It's still the same Ayu, just not the same Ayu.
I think she's been ready to move on, but didn't want to seem like a liar because she assured us so many times that her career was the most important thing to her. I think that's changed. And I've changed from it too, if only because I wish we weren't the best friend Ayu rarely checks in with now that she has a shiny husband to spend all her time with.