[AyuWorld]

Originally Posted by Zeke.

I cried reading this.

What's weird is just two days ago I watched that sit down interview she did during Secret, where they ask her if she wasn't a singer, what would she be doing... and she pretty much says she can't possibly conceive anything else "I die. Music is my life. My life is music." And I was brought back to her ear failure and how depressing that must have been for her. And now I see this. I can't imagine any worse fate than this. Your aboslute passion; your life's mission; your calling... just dissipating - slipping through the cracks of your fingers, and there's nothing you can do about it.

I think she knows, there will be a time when the sand runs out... and she wants to make sure that the time leading up to that inevitability is not spent being cautionary - if she loses either way, she will lose knowing she gave it her all until she physically could not do it anymore. Like "if this runs down my body, so be it - if I don't have music, what do I need this body of mine for anyway?"

and I cant imagine my life without Ayu and her music anymore.

thanx Aderianu. I still remember clearly the pic she posted during a-nation 09 after she had liquid sucked out of her knee and as usual saying it didnt hurt much and that shes doing ok