I just happened to read TA this morning and this is the news I see
I'm honestly devastated. I can't imagine what Ayu's trying to deal with right now.
I feel she's being foolish for overdoing the concerts so much but I also know that Ayu will lose her sense of self if she can't sing. Maybe things are even worse than what she's telling us.....maybe her 20th anniversary will be her farewell and she wants to do as much she can in the time she has left?
With the dates extending to at least February (let's be real though it's probably going to be March/April for the final ones) I really feel like she might be winding up tours for good....her body can't possibly sustain this kinds of stress for another whole year as I'd imagine her 20th anniversary tour would ideally be even bigger that the pre-20th tour.
I haven't sent Ayu a letter on TA for a few months but I decided to send one today...I felt really emo about it and it's cheesy af but I ended it with "If ayu is the sun then the fans want to become the moon and send love and energy back to you. あゆちゃん守るために愛と力をあげます。" haha...
....the thought of ayu struggling against her body effectively giving out is just the saddest and loneliest thing I can imagine.
I didn't sign up for this back when I first listened to Ayu Trance 2 back in 2004 or listened to RAINBOW for the first time. Ayu isn't an evil person, she really just wants to be accepted and treasured so she constantly goes above and beyond...but for what end? She can't picture herself without music so I really worry about her future if she can't do the one thing she allows herself praise for doing...