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I am in such a shock right now. As somebody sadi, that explains a lot, her being off recently and maybe even the shorter tracklist for this tour is the reason for that. Also I think a lot of people judge the situation negatively because they think they have all details in terms of her medical history etc ^^ I know Ayu seemed to be pretty open about her life but in all honesty we may know 1% of her most private areas like health. I don't think like dwelling on "maybes" (maybe she has wanted to live to the fullest as the artist knowing her worsening condition?) cause now is now.

It is just a really sad moment. I have been a fan since 2006 and Ayu was my first musician I started following because the moment I heard her voice I felt that this was the person i can easily connect with on emotional level, even though I didn't understand lyrics then (that changed quickly). In the course of years I had no break in following her, the ancitipation for new songs, albums, music videos and tours especially was so intense and gave me a really positive energy. Also whenever I was in a bad moment in my life listening to Ayu's songs contributed largely to my piece of mind and not letting me rot in depression. I associate many of her songs with very specific memories, important ones, both very happy and very sad. Her lyrics ,even though the theme was often repeated, have always been such a powerful push for me. Not to mention her passion for work has always inspired me to do what i love. Yesterday I watched "Step by step" and oh gosh how relevant it is now:

"One more step, so that even if it becomes
The last step we’ll ever take, we won’t regret it
One more step, because our courage to step out
Holds more meaning than taking 100 steps"

I have so much respect to Ayu and even if she slows down very much in her music profession, I will always support her because what she has given me and many other people is priceless. Love her.