[kazuni]

The sense of duty, as you say masa, is great within ayu. Since she is the real money-maker in her company (comparing to other artists she made the most profit) we've always suspected (i donno if it is really true) that the avex guys is pushing her limits over and over again through these years - they will not allow something like namie's pregnant incident to happen at all (not taht i am saying she's pregnant, but out of business for a while) - and definitely, they won't succeed in pushing if ayu herself doesn't have that much of dedication to her career - mostly because of her fans. It's nice to see an artist working at his/her best but not seeing an artist to be totally stressed. What I think is that a true ayumi fans would totally not mind if she would take a vacation at all, if they understand what she had went through these past years.

What I had in mind is that, she might be doing all these because of someone - or something. It might be a mental crisis (not that she went crasy or anything like that) that she went through, that made her pushing herself forward and did what she could possibly do - I mean, look at her past years - trying out different things, and this year with the release of the new album "rainbow" she recognizes the market for singing english songs and actually tried singing in english - i mean, it's definitely a hard breakthrough for an artist, especially after all these years for a singing artist in her career. It's also hard on herself - I am not really sure about her level of english is very good or not, but it's rare to see an artist that writes lyrics herself that actually writes in english (not that it's totally english but still)...

dang i have a class now i think i'll continue on this perhaps later ^^