[walking proud]

Originally Posted by spacelion

A BEST was a turning point in her carrier because she realized that she was only a product for Avex, milking her for all she was worth. She was forced under contract to make it. So she resung some songs & added a new song "M" on the CD so the fans could get their money's worth.

She felt like quiting because the company was putting so much pressure on her. They asked her to compose all the songs for her next studio album, even though she never had any experience. She had so much on her plate that when they slapped her with "A Best" she was like,"that's it. I can't take it anymore." In the NTV interview she said that she posed for so many magazine covers during that time because she knew that if she quit, she would never experience it again.

I'm assuming that she had the thought of quiting in her head since the "A" single which is why Ayu wrote songs like "end roll", but seeing as it sold so well, she continued on for awhile. I think that's what happened with "A Best." Ayu said that was the last straw, but since it sold over 4 million copies, she didn't want to dissapoint her fans so she continued on.

She released "endless sorrow" 2 months after A Best which is a dark and depressing song and dissapeared for a little while. (She wasn't even in the original endless sorrow PV!), but something about her changed and she released UNITE! & Dearest and finally her "I am..." album. I guess she gave in and said "I am a product. It is my job to fulfill people's dreams."

That's pretty depressing, you know..!