^exactly! (I thought I wasn't explaining what I meant correctly,
) I look up to Ayumi because of this too. Like even though this might end someday, live and love up to your fullest so you can be happy and remember it in a positive light and grow from the experience.
I agree with what you said about her relationship and past w/ her father reflecting her views on life and in her music. You can see it in some of her lyrics and her music.