'(miss) understood' romaji and translation

[masa]

These lyrics sound like her inner shout. My favorite song in this album.
I decided to write as "iu" this time. But actually, Japanese people pronounce this part as "yuu" very often and so does Ayumi.
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Daijoubu da tte iikikasete
Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru
Nageyari da tte iu n ja naku te
Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

Furueru te o kakushita no wa
Doujou ga samu sugiru kara

Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no
Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai
Sore nara isso minai furi shite
Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

Imasara kireigoto da nante
Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai
Itami wa fueru ippou darou
Nara ba uketomete iku made sa

Kowai kurai sunda kuuki wa
Arashi ga kuru mae no shizukesa

Shinsetsu sou na ano hitobito wa
Hontou wa nani o shiri tai no darou
Yasashige na me no oku ni surudoi
Kouki to iu na no naifu kakushite

Kimi wa ittai nani ga hoshii no
Kimi wa ittai nani o negau no
Kimi wa ittai doko o mezasu no
Soshite soko e wa dare to mukau no

Kimi ga kimi de ikirareru no wa
Saisho de saigo kono ichido dake
Ookina chizu o hirogeta ato wa
Kimi dake no michi o egake ba ii
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I said to myself "I'm OK"
And showed my usual smile
I was not in desperation
But in a kind of defiance

I hid my trembling hand from some people
Because their sympathy was so hollow

I don't get warmed
By half-hearted and artificial warmth
I rather want them to shut their eyes
Until I break into pieces without a trace

I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it

The air is awfully clear
The calm before a storm

What do those people really want to know
With seeming kindness
Hiding a sharp knife of curiosity
Behind their gentle looking eyes?

What do you really want?
What do you really wish?
Where do you really aim for?
And with whom?

It's the first and the last time
For you to live just as yourself
You should draw your own path
After spreading a big map