How much does Ayu mean to you?

[himawariii6]

I became a fan of Ayumi in mid-2012 (around A Summer Best release date) when I checked J-Pop songs. She was the first J-pop artist I've ever heard.
The first song I've ever heard was "Heaven". That song didn't impact much on me, however "Dearest" did.
She became a favourite for me, even though she wasn't my #1 overall favourite artist. In 2015, after I detached from My Chemical Romance because I kind-of recovered from my depression and I associated MCR with melancholic thoughts, she became my #1 favourite singer.
When I have panic attacks or suicidal thoughts, Ayumi's there for me because her music calms me down.