A Song for xx

[nmskalmn]

Why am I crying?
Why am I confused?
Why do I hesitate?
Hey, tell me

When will I become grown up?
How long can I stay a child?
Where have I come running from
And where will I run to?

I had no place to belong, I hadn't found one
I didn't even know if I could expect anything of the future

I was always told I was a strong girl
I was praised as being great because I didn't cry
I didn't want any of those words
That's why I pretended I didn't understand

Why am I laughing?
Why am I by your side?
Why have we split up?
Hey, tell me

Since when have I grown strong?
Since when have I felt weakness?
How long must I wait?
Until the day comes when we understand each other

The sun will be rising soon, I've gotta go
I can't stay forever in the same place

I had thought that trusting others
Was the same as being betrayed and rejected
Back then, I had no such strength anywhere
I'm sure I knew too many things

I was always told I was a strong girl
I was praised as being great because I didn't cry
The more those around me talked in that way
The more painful it became to smile

Born all alone, I'll go on living all alone
I was sure it would be natural to live like that

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translation by Ryuichi
Ryuichi's J-Pop Music Station