[Shocking news] TA message 204

[geneticboi]

oh my god. =(

[JinHamasaki]

how very sad....but it was bound to happen at the rate she is working. I'm sure her deafness will be permanent now. I hope she will take it easy after her ASIA TOUR 2008.

[Marseille]

OMG!! how brave of her to continue on anyway. I wonder if this struggle is why she's started to let some of her fashion slide (she's starting to copy Koda). I guess its sometimes difficult to remain on top of everything when she'd facing tragedy.
I wish the best for ayu

[truehappiness]

Originally Posted by Marseille

OMG!! how brave of her to continue on anyway. I wonder if this struggle is why she's started to let some of her fashion slide (she's starting to copy Koda). I guess its sometimes difficult to remain on top of everything when she'd facing tragedy.
I wish the best for ayu

Well, the plaid is a nice refresher. I don't think she's copying Koda, since I don't think anyone does.. Ayu's probably just deciding: "Hm, I'll wear this." for some things, and in terms of magazines, she doesn't have a choice sometimes as to what clothes are given to her..

[truehappiness]

This kinda makes me think that her crying during MY ALL is a culmination of all the holding it in during the other numbers when she's supposed to be energetic.. seeing as how this show is to commemorate Natsuki in a way as well as celebrate her anniversary and she's disappointed that she is unable to hit the notes, thus the crying....

SURREAL's laughter in the middle of the song, as for glitter too.. could be that she's trying to laugh off the whole thing..

Here's an excerpt of her TalkAsia thing about her "feelings":

Ayu: My job is simply to be myself, to be Ayumi Hamasaki. I might have a day during which I feel upset or sad, or perhaps a day when I feel very happy about something. No matter what my mood, my job is to sing as Ayumi Hamasaki all the time regardless of how I'm feeling on any particular day. For instance, when I'm performing on a music show, I would have just 5 minutes to sing one of my songs. My job is to sing a song of Ayumi Hamasaki in just a short 5 minutes of time. It doesn't matter whether I feel sad or angry at any given time. Of course, I don't always want to show those feelings either, but what can I say? I have feelings too, as I am a human being, so I put the emotions into all my songs.

Perhaps this was kinda what happened at CDL, and she broke? Frustration and stuff got to her? :\

[Bad Wolf]

Originally Posted by truehappiness

This kinda makes me think that her crying during MY ALL is a culmination of all the holding it in during the other numbers when she's supposed to be energetic.. seeing as how this show is to commemorate Natsuki in a way as well as celebrate her anniversary and she's disappointed that she is unable to hit the notes, thus the crying....

That's what I think, too. I mean let's look at what MY ALL means on the title alone: she's doing her best, she's... well, giving it her all--and I just hope Ayu didn't think it wasn't good enough because the show was WONDERFUL, even though her vocals weren't up to par. But even THAT I don't care about in the slightest: I thought she did a fine job She did her best and it was beautiful--I hope she has enough confidence and good enough people around her to tell her that.

[elepop]

Oh no...

I want her to take a break from concerts now...

[ownsarai]

This news makes me so sad. Ayu, please rest up! I know you want to give your ALL to us, the fans, but PLEASE take care of yourself. We all love you and hope you will take it easy for a while. Take a nice 6 month vacation to LA.

[jon_the_d]

resting up isn't going to cure an incurable loss of hearing.

it seems some of you are not quite getting this fact.

[ownsarai]

Originally Posted by jon_the_d

resting up isn't going to cure an incurable loss of hearing.

it seems some of you are not quite getting this fact.

No...REALLY? I know this...I think the point we are all making is that she should not push herself too hard, we do not want her to go completely deaf just trying to make her fans happy.

[criminal]

Hmm, I'll be surprised if this isn't big news in Japan. The biggest-selling female artist of all time has a medical condition that is directly affecting her performances. But I don't know if Ayumi herself would want everyone to know about it.
Ah, I'm just so confused now. When bad news comes, for the first few hours I'm so sad, then afterwards I'm just confused and it feels really unreal to me. x_x
I've said this before, but I just want Ayumi to feel 100%.

[truehappiness]

We should give it a day. I think it took about that long for the Tomoya story to break..

[freedreamer]

GOSH, im really shocked by this news...i would least expect to happen now...
I hope she has a nice break after her 10th anniversary...take her time...and then just continue with her passion of coz...LOVE U AYU ALWAYS!!!

hope she keeps her right ear nice and gd...i really cant imagine a day of silence...
can u imagine, she crying, yet she cant hear her own cries...thats...just so horrible i feel..

and im really touched that..she sacrificied her own life for her career...in the eyes of some, they might think she is just desperate...but i think its very brave

[AyUmIXx]

i'll just hope for the best for ayu for whatever she thinks she's right of doing it...
and i hope that she knows her limit~

[Mirai Noah]

I'm kind of at a loss for words... poor Ayu.

[Maxker]

This is so horrible to hear, I'm speechless. It is terrible for anyone to a to lose hearing. Especially a singer. Poor Ayu

[truehappiness]

It seems that the Japanese fan community is aware of this now.

あゆの耳が・・・
http://g1.tarekomi.jp/pc_res_list.php/5/1119289/new

Thread here about her ears, I think. And mixi.jp's Ayu community is trying to make 1000 paper cranes for her.. I think.

[babamon]

Originally Posted by truehappiness

It seems that the Japanese fan community is aware of this now.



Thread here about her ears, I think. And mixi.jp's Ayu community is trying to make 1000 paper cranes for her.. I think.

That's good to hear.. that they're doing smt so show their support to her.. afterall japan fans are the ones that are most likely to be able to contact her or closer to her..

I guess if there's really an asia tour coming up, the fans this time round are gonna show her the utmost support, even more than last year.

[Ayumi_lover]

mmm... thats why one her ear was closed during CDL08.
She take a rest from the concerts and write more new songs. Write new album for September. But it is impossible for her to take a rest from concerts this year because it is her Anniversary

[stickyrice]

This is really horrible Especially since music is really important to her. I can't even go a day without listening to some sort of song so if I lost my hearing I'd be traumatised! Not to mention I wouldn't be able to talk to my friends and family anymore. Poor ayu. (but at least one ear is fine ...)