[Translation] TEAMAyu blog: 29 June "Mornin' ♪"

[primavera♥]

thanks misa ^___^ shes looks fantastic in the ACDC shirt.

[visionfactory]

She looks amazing with that hair and those clothes!!!!!!!

[taskinillusion]

Such pretty blue skies!!

[GREENsora]

thank you for the translation!

[Ranma Matsuri]

Originally Posted by aura~

Every TA member here should PM Misa or Deli as they have the right to know what she said... but not post it here... well, it's just MY opinion... I mean.. every TA member can do what they want, if do what Ayu asks or not...

And.. that's not what a japanese TA fan translated to me... and another one comfirmed me what ayu said...

Ayu said that a crazy fan tried to take her bracelet but that another fan next to that crazy one took that persons' arm from her... so it's not stolen, but they tried... she still was really scared...

look, she still has it here in this pic in HK...

I seriously have tears in my eyes right now. I mean how sick and insensitive of a person do you have to be to try to take something that important from someone and I bet the first thing they would've done is sold it on auction for some outrageous price. How can they even dare call themselves a fan? I'm so glad she's alright and didn't have it taken from her. Some people, I swear...

[rakeru]

Cute! HK looks so gorgeous in those shots, so I hope she takes many more pictures!

[*°wann_ayubabies°*]

thanks for the translation!!!

the scenery of Hong Kong looks very beautiful

[rusuke]

This entry is so nice.

Thanks for translating, misa-chan as always!

[tetsuo69]

i'm lost, did something bad happen ?

[2Hurt]

Thanks for sharing ^-^

[Misa-chan]

Not many people know the significance behind the bracelet. At least I doubt the one who tried to snatch it away did.

For all those people who are lost, basically, ayu wrote a TA message on the 28th about Nagoya, and that's when she mentioned this incident. The reason why I didn't translate and post it here is because ayu said this:

"Ah, because it's TA here, that's why I'm talking about this. If you read and understand me, and try not to leak it at Twitter, I'll be really happy."

This gave me the impression that she didn't want this message to be leaked out to the public, so I respected her wishes and didn't post up a translation.

Yeah, as Deli had said, in Nagoya, someone tried to rip the red bracelet off her wrist, but the person next to him grabbed his arm and he let go of ayu. Her basic reaction was "It's been a long time since I've felt such pain in my heart. You can do anything, but the red bracelet, only that, please leave it alone."

[Ranma Matsuri]

Yeah, you're right. They probably didn't but it still makes me so mad. People really just don't think about stuff like that they just take without a thought to the consequences or what if could do to a person.

She's so shaken up just by it *almost* being stolen away I can't imagine how'd she be if it were actually taken from her.

[Mintkisses]

Not digging the red lipstick.

Anyways, sorry for my lack of knowledge, but what significance is her red bracelet?

[majrakun]

Originally Posted by Mintkisses

Not digging the red lipstick.

Anyways, sorry for my lack of knowledge, but what significance is her red bracelet?

It's a symbol of friendship between her and two friends, one who died of cancer back in 2008 and Ayu wrote the song 'Life' for him, so the bracelet really means alot to her. The entries were posted by Deli somewhere here, really heartbreaking.

[gallowsCalibrator]

Is this the entry?

Spoiler:

Tomorrow, the curtain will be closed on the Japan leg of the tour.
I have received thoughts from everyone I've met all over the
country, those who can't come to the show tomorrow, everyone
who answered me with all their strength, and even
everyone who's going to the show tomorrow, and thanks
to those precious, precious feelings all over my
whole body, I feel I am able to sing.
Because absolutely we're having a wonderful time.
No matter what's happening in a given moment, the thought of it burns into our hearts.
Today, everyone's love was flooding the venue,
and I felt like I could cry from the very first song.
All throughout Japan, you all, who love me so much,
were gathering together.
I truly, truly thank you.
Tomorrow, with all our hearts, let's decorate the last show with so many different smiles & tears together, and make the show
the best.
I'm doing this show with all my might!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, I make such judgement because I have come to talk about Countdown Live, following through with the declaration in my last entry.
But that said, considering what I'm going to write, I'm not sure how or to what extent to convey my thoughts. I'm having
trouble with that.
So because I'm having issues there, I'm just gonna convey this to you all who I wish to see in Yoyogi, with the plain & clear
feelings I have, sticking to the honest feelings I have in my own heart.
Alright.
I hesitated on this. And even now I'm hesitating.
However, I'm going to say what I feel.
After my birthday, in the fall of last year, I was busy working on the album.
During that time, I stayed in LA for quite awhile, so I could only do my photoshoots & recording sessions.
News of Aneki's death had come from my mother, only immediately reaching Bancho, Ohji, and my closest staff members,
it seemed.
But everyone had discussed it, and they decided that telling me this would make it too hard for me to work, and they said I shouldn't know until I returned to Japan.
I didn't know what was going on, so in a very happy-go-lucky & easygoing way, I said,
"Hmm, how come I'm not getting any e-mails?"
They revealed the truth, and I found it to be extremely bitter.
So I finished all my work and came back home that very day. When I go to my house, Mommy was there.
Since we're not living together (in case you're wondering), she didn't say "okaeri", but her eyes were filled to the brim with tears as she started to say, "Ayu, Aneki has gone to Heaven."
I rushed out of the house, on my own. I got into a taxi, and very purposefully I went to Aneki's house.
I hadn't been able to comprehend everything until I saw that the power was off.
Then, I saw Aneki's ashes.
I don't know how long, but I was silent, remaining crouched down.
It really took a considerable amount of time before I was able to cope with the reality of all of it.
Having these kinds of feelings, the end of the year was a blur for me.
With a feeling of nothingness, I went through a number of events, and I ended up building a bigger & bigger wall around me.
That's how Countdown Live was.
The show Aneki was looking forward to.
After the show on the 31st finished, my heart was ruled by huge anxiety, something I haven't felt since then until now.
That's...wow, how to explain it...
I can't aptly apply it to words, but...
Even when I thought to myself "I have to be able to make it somehow!!!", I, who should have been determined to keep running,
was extremely depressed anyway.
Naturally, with everyone who came to the venue and even everyone who just watched on TV, I had the best & most amazing time on the 30th & 31st, and, this is an absolute fact, I was really happy.
However, I gave myself away, so I think many of you were probably able to understand.
No, absolutely, I think you all understood.
So, during those two days, there was the issue with my left ear not working, and it scared me. At the same time, I thought to
myself, I am a vocalist, but again, I'm also a human being, and I need to be able to lead the team. I thought I couldn't play both
roles.
In a performance, singing the songs is the most important thing. As such, the most basic and fundamental #1 thing wasn't there.
If I said anything as I was right then, I had no persuasive power. Moreover, this thing with Aneki influenced me to the point where even my judgement had been
considerably shaky.
One song, and then another...whenever I go to sing, my hearing condition continues to get worse, and my mood is nothing but impatient.
When I think like that, I can't sing. I can't be heard...
Without hitting on the problem, I was always getting angry and getting sad, feeling chagrin, but even in my head it was a jumble.
Anyway...even if you jsut watch the DVD, since there was a lot of crying during the show, so you can probably understand.
One way or another New Year arrived, thanks to the love of all the guests there, and the many wonderful staff & band
members and dancers, but I was always thinking.
Can I never sing like I used to?
Would that concert become my last?
For a very very long time, I was thinking so many, SOO MANY different things like this.
Thinking about it & thinking about it & thinking about it some more, I struggled to arrive at one solution.
And then, the answer came
Keep on singing.
Just like that.
From the day I decided that, I made a vow never again to complain or make any excuses.
And, as one of my ambitions for this year, I have been coming here to write,
to tell everyone my feelings.
Do you remember what was said?
So, during this year's long tour, I've been able to do absolutely everything.
Every day, every single day was filled up, and I was busy both mentally and physically.
But absolutely, I wasn't defeated. I couldn't be defeated.
Because I made a promise to everyone.
Once again, like I have in the past--
no, like I will from now on-- I've become strong enough to really stand on that grand stage.
I've been thinking like that during rehearsals for many months now.
Since then I've realized how quickly time is passing. It's surprising to think that tomorrow is already Yoyogi.
Lots of things happened during the tour...
I didn't think of these circumstances as challenging, though.
Because, even with all that stuff happening,
I know that you all understand, everyone.
It might be reckless to say, but even when feeling desperate inside,
the time spent with everyone during this tour was truly the
best time. My memories of these days shine more & more, quickly & strongly, and I become a better person for it.
I feel the importance of my 10th anniversary acutely through my whole self.
I began the tour at Yoyogi.
I clearly remember every exchange between my heart & everyone else's since that day.
Everyone's similing faces, tear-stained faces, perplexed faces, I love aaaallll of them.
Everyone's feelings are always transmitted to me.
I am very fortunate.
I thought, if I had to losemy left ear, it's alright that I keep on trying with my right ear.
But that's not quite right.
I haven't lost anything.
Because everyone has offered to become my left ear.
So my ears are stronger now.
That having been said, although I was smiling about this, and those were beautiful thoughts,
this writer has become useless.
The screen is getting blurry, so that's no good.
But I'll hold these tears back until the last day.
The tour continues into the Fall, but for right now, the domestic part of the tour ends with the two days in Yoyogi..........
I look forward to some serious fighting spirit!!!!!!!
Let's make it the best two days ever,
Yoyogi--------------------------!!!!!!
While saying that, I was secretly feeling very anxious.
Thank you for reading this until the very end.
Aneki, please always watch over me!!!!!

I found this article and thought it might be the one majrakun mentioned (^_^) It made me cry~~~~

[Bigtop]

Originally Posted by Misa-chan

Not many people know the significance behind the bracelet. At least I doubt the one who tried to snatch it away did.

For all those people who are lost, basically, ayu wrote a TA message on the 28th about Nagoya, and that's when she mentioned this incident. The reason why I didn't translate and post it here is because ayu said this:

"Ah, because it's TA here, that's why I'm talking about this. If you read and understand me, and try not to leak it at Twitter, I'll be really happy."

This gave me the impression that she didn't want this message to be leaked out to the public, so I respected her wishes and didn't post up a translation.

Yeah, as Deli had said, in Nagoya, someone tried to rip the red bracelet off her wrist, but the person next to him grabbed his arm and he let go of ayu. Her basic reaction was "It's been a long time since I've felt such pain in my heart. You can do anything, but the red bracelet, only that, please leave it alone."

Originally Posted by Ranma Matsuri

Yeah, you're right. They probably didn't but it still makes me so mad. People really just don't think about stuff like that they just take without a thought to the consequences or what if could do to a person.

She's so shaken up just by it *almost* being stolen away I can't imagine how'd she be if it were actually taken from her.

Originally Posted by Mintkisses

Not digging the red lipstick.

Anyways, sorry for my lack of knowledge, but what significance is her red bracelet?

Originally Posted by majrakun

It's a symbol of friendship between her and two friends, one who died of cancer back in 2008 and Ayu wrote the song 'Life' for him, so the bracelet really means alot to her. The entries were posted by Deli somewhere here, really heartbreaking.

Originally Posted by captain-kawaii123

Is this the entry?

Spoiler:

I found this article and thought it might be the one majrakun mentioned (^_^) It made me cry~~~~

I don't know why Ayu is trying to let people get out of the way all because of the red bracelet... I think there seems to be a symbol of friendship there with that red bracelet...

[mobius]

Thanks for the translation Misa.

Not really digging the red lipstick.

Its kinda cruel for one of her fans try to steal the red bracelet from her.

Glad that she still have it though, that bracelet meant a lot to her.

[majrakun]

Originally Posted by captain-kawaii123

Is this the entry?



I found this article and thought it might be the one majrakun mentioned (^_^) It made me cry~~~~

This is so... But no, it wasn't this one. This one is about Aneki. The friend she mentioned in the entry about the red bracelet was Bacchi, if I'm not mistaken. Let me search for it.

EDIT: Found it!

http://www.gaijinkanpai.com/main-pag...7-10-2009.html

*sniff*

[gallowsCalibrator]

^ Oh! I'm sorry, I didn't know which one~ Thank you for sharing the right one!! It's so touching~

[asmAyumi1992]

Oh the red bracelet.. I feel so wrong to steal that. How whoever he is could try to steal it! Shame on you!! (T^T)