Ayumi Hamasaki Sekai - walking proud PV and lyrics

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walking proud PV and lyrics

When I saw the pv without reviewing the lyrics i think it's kinda happyt pv, but when AT 05 comes, she cried when singing this 'happy-sad' song.

I wonder why??
But i have a theory....

'My lips told a lie
For a trivial reason
I suppose it was for no one else
But only to protect me
When I was thoughtless'

'When I noticed, I was trapped and at a loss
Surrounded by countless lies'

This means she remisce her childhood when she lied to herself that she could survive alone and make it all alone. She lied to make herself relieved and glad so that she could pretending living happily. But the lies she made never make her feel the real relieved feeling or glad either.

'The sky I looked up at was beautiful
I thought of you
I wished I could walk with firm steps
Facing forward like you'

This part gets me confused. Who is 'you'?? Is it her father which she longed for his warmth?? Whom could show her the path an taught her???

Maybe only that I could think right now....

Any other opinions?? Or could someone tell me the real reason she cried in this song???

THX

Uhm..

I would imagine that she could be talking about a less mature version of herself looking upon the her in the present..

sort of like how RAINBOW was past / present Ayu.. :/

Oh, I think it's her mother. Her mom just kept working through life and never showed much weakness regarding ayu's father leaving. Ayu probably worked during high school and became a singer in the hopes that she could be as strong as her mother seemed to be.

The other thought is that it could be Tomoya Nagase. In Free & Easy she sings about admiring him and qualities he has. This could be one of the things about him that she admires.

Or it could just be a friend that she particularly sees as being strong. Someone we don't even know. But I don't think she's singing to herself, cuz of the lyric "Someday I'll be who I want to be, though I'm far from that now". I think there's not alot that she admires about herself, past or present. (Though she really should, in my opinion. She's been through alot and she's managed to get so far in life.)