Whats No way to say, about?

[Ayufan11]

The old wound left on me
Begins to ache
I hide my trembling heart again
And pretend to smile

Even in my age now, I'm the same as before
As timid as before
I only learn how to pretend to be strong

Though my heart is filled with feelings to convey
You see, I can't change them into words well
If I had not met you
I wouldn't even have such an embarrassing pain

Little by little, I've come to realize
That my past never heals
And that it's no use
Fearing the future I can't refuse

How much more courage do I need
To say with my head held high
"This is the only important thing to me" ?

(*) Though I have firm feelings
You see, I can't change them into words as usual
Everyone is living this way
With feelings they can't express

Though my heart is filled with feelings to convey
You see, I can't change them into words well
If I had not met you
I wouldn't even have such an embarrassing pain and ...

(*) repeat


I guess I get that she is no longer with someone, and that she has learned to pretend to be happy like everyone else and if she had not ever met this person that might have broke her heart she would not have such a pain.


what is she fearing of the future?

"Though my heart is filled with feelings to convey
You see, I can't change them into words well "

cant change what feelings into words, pain???


"How much more courage do I need
To say with my head held high
"This is the only important thing to me" ? "

whats the only thing important to her?