[Translation] Latest TA post [19th May 2017] - Health and ear condition

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You can he brave and still make decisions that are not the best for your health. But as complex beings we have the ability to value different things in our lives. It is hard sometimes to understand the mental space someone is in when they are being faced with completely changing their lifestyle and losing one of their passions. Ayu has a lot more to her life that is periodically hinted at in interviews or just from reading in between the lines that I think we don't always think about. And thats because I tjink we don't always remember that she is a person with serious feelings. She is a rich celebrity. But her life contains a lot of loss similar to our own. I can't imagine the time she had after ending such a long relationship with Nagase and finding herself in a new space. And then still searching for love after that that still to this day hasn't lasted. That probably is really painful and hard for her but she doesn't show it. She's lost friends, she keeps going. I remember reading about her poor health and eating habits (such as starving herself for an image) from her early career. But she even clearly worked on that and today is probably as fit as ever. To be presented with losing the main parts of your 20 year career must suck especially when it's one thing that is constant for her.

I think saying her music is stale is an opinion and wouldn't change her mind at all. And taking a break does not mean she'll come back refreshed or make better music or have more ideas or save her career and improve sales. There are examples of artists who do that and come back with music their hardcore fans still dont like. There are also artists that come back and have music loved by fans but that doesnt sell well at all and even significantly worse than before they disappeared. People just forget about them.

Ayu shows a lot of her lifestyle efforts and she did a lot of strength training and seemed to eat better. Her body shows it with those muscles lol. I think she is trying to take care of herself while maintaining her career but it is proving to be difficult. I'm sure even when she makes determined statements, she'll still second guess herself which is good because these things are serious.

I really am worried about her mental health sometimes due to what she seems to go through in her life. And your state of mental health and general feelings and passions can inform decisions like this. I dont associate that with "stupidity."