What was so bad about Ayu's past??

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What happenned in her past...

- Her father left her mother and herself at a very young age. Also, she never met him since... She doesn't remember her father and don't even know if he's still alive... (Memorial Address, teddy bear)
- She rarely saw her mother. Ayu's mother had several jobs. Her grand-mother is the one who took care of her. (A Song for XX)
- It was said that she never ever ate a meal cooked by her mom.
- Her grand-mother died the day she recorded "poker face". (ever free, Who...)
- She was reject my other mothers. They thought Ayu was rebelious because she dyed her hair. The mothers didn't want their kids to be friends with Ayu.

I don't think all of her "sad" lyrics are all based on her past or her experience though.